Into February.

We have graduated into February and are soon to be three months old. It never used to seem like it would, but time has progressed quickly. Instead of a crying, crazy baby with no sleep we have a sometimes crying, crazy, smiling baby with no sleep. That few hours she is awake and happy during the day make a huge difference in how it feels. I'm still utterly exhausted and in need of a nap. The past two days I've had two coffees. We are already starting to teeth so last night was a lot of painful cries and very few zzz's.

But last week, we had very special visitors! DH was gone for most of the time on a business trip. It was my first time being in the house alone and with an infant. Luckily, I was mostly too tired to get anxious about it. I did, however, sit in the dark the first day alone so that LO would sleep instead of scream. That caused some minor depression on my part. But once we got into the routine, it was okay. She did really well sleeping at night for me and we got through it. I definitely missed the breaks in the evening I am used to getting when DH comes home. And getting to shower without worrying about if she is crying or needs something. But then, her godparents came to meet her (finally it worked out!).

M came down earlier and did some baby snuggling, which gave my arms their first real baby free time in a few days. H joined on Saturday and stayed for another day. DH came home Friday night. And this is why these two people are two of the most amazing people I know, in every way possible. After paying (in bus ticket and gas) to get down here they proceeded: to do two photo shoots (lo is seriously adorable), watch LO so DH and I could go on a date, give us money for the date, make me a birthday torte, give me a birthday card, cut my hair and made us breakfast. I'm pretty sure it should have worked the other way around since they were our guests. We had a fantastic weekend, got some stress out, got out of the house and had an fantastically delicious omelette (plus of course the torte, I do love chocolate right now).

And this is now our February. It is Valentine's Day and LO is wearing a heart, about to fall asleep for a nap. I will enjoy my first cup of coffee and start working on my writing assignments until she wakes up. Then hopefully I can finish them today so tomorrow I can do things I enjoy. Besides, of course, taking care of my daughter.

She now grabs onto everything, plays with toys and interacts with the cat (her best best friend ever). There has never been a time in my life I have been so proud to see such changes overnight. Huge, momentous things are happening here and it has only just begun.